Upside down and backwards

Life isn't as it once seemed to be.  Where hope and faith once stood, doubt and numbness now reside.  How can things have turned out so wrong? How has my world been shaken and turned upside down so completely? If everything happens for a reason, what is the reason in this?

I do not understand how a man who manipulates everything can continue to win.  I do not understand how someone who has no integrity or moral compass can continually find people to follow him and do his evil bidding.  Where is the justice? How can an already rich man steal money and opportunity for prosperity from those around him without consequence?  I can continually fool myself into thinking that one day he'll suffer because he'll be alone or that he'll see the error of his ways; but what's the point?  I want to believe in a just world; a just universe.  I want to, but the notion is quickly slipping through my fingers.

I once felt that right would ultimately win out over wrong; that good would triumph over evil.  I believed this even when faced with evidence to the contrary.  Now I feel foolish and naive.  The trouble is finding my footing.  How do I move forward without faith that I will ultimately find love and that things will turn out? Am I foolish for believing in anything? Am I setting myself up for disappointment thinking that there is an ultimate plan in place?  I don't know anymore.  I just don't know.

Evil wins again... for now

I am crushed.  I am stunned. I am disappointed.  How? How does a greedy evil bastard of a man continue to get his way in life? How does someone who is honest, kindhearted and generous with all keep getting screwed by him? It is not right.  I feel sick.  How can I believe in anything if this continues? Evil cannot continue to win; and yet, it does. He does. I want to scream. I want to cry.  I am crushed.